Eat Like a Bird or...

What NAMG is doing to loose weight THIS week.

OK... so... Weigh In Day was yesterday. I lost another 3.5 lbs this week! WOOT. I'm rocking the calorie counting!

I'm existing on 1200 to 1600 calories. It all kind of depends on how hungry I am.

A typical food day follows:

Breakfast:

2 Eggs, fried in non-stick spray oil - 140 Calories
2 slices Sunbeam TX Giant Bread, toasted- 110 Calories
1 Cuppa Coffee - 0 Calories

Lunch:

2 FF Hot Dogs - 80 Calories
2 Slices Sunbeam TX Giant Bread - 110 Calories
No calorie Mayo (It is real! Check it out!)
Mustard
Catsup
Fresca

Snack:

1 Pkg Reduced Fat Peanut Butter Crackers - 180 Calories

Dinner:

2 Artichoke and Spinach Alfredo Stuffed Chicken Breasts - 480 Calories
1 Cup Baked Beans - 240 Calories
Fresca

Total Calories for the Day: 1340

I'm not feeling deprived. I'm not STARVING, but, I am a bit hungry by the end of the day. It's working well for now, so, onward I go!!!!

Side Note: Shecky is on a field trip today... At a water park. I'm a nervous, fricking wreck!

!#@$!#$^(!@# !@#&?~^@%*?6

I gained 11 lbs. In a WEEK. So. NOT. HAPPY.

I felt stuffed all day yesterday and only managed to eat 2200 calories. Bleh. Hate.

I'm considering dropping to 1600 calories a day. Not sure though. Damn. I need a magic bullet.

Weight Loss Wins, Woes and Wishes

Today was my OFFICIAL Weight In Day for the week. After eating 800 calories a day for 7 days, I lost a total of 10 lbs.

Yeah. You read that right. No additional weight loss for the 2 nd half of the week.

Initially, I was kinda pissed off. I mean... DAMN. WTF was I starving myself for, right? Then... I flipped my perspective.

I LOST 10 LBS IN A WEEK!
I proved to myself I can monitor my food intake without relying on "points".
I proved to myself I can monitor my food intake without eating junk to satisfy my cravings.
I busted that ever loving plateau I've been on for MONTHS.
I realized that 800 calories a day really ISN'T enough. By the end of the week I was much less active due to fatigue, hence, no additional weight loss.
I realized I really do HAVE to exercise in the pool to loose weight.
I LOST 10 LBS IN A WEEK!

Heheh. Sorry. Kinda stoked about that one. *ahem*

Today I go up to 1000 calories a day. I actually ate, gasp, BREAKFAST. I had 2 slices of bacon and one Light Thick & Creamy Yoplait Yogurt for a total of 190 calories. There's those extra 200 calories. :)

I have a doctor's appointment with my physician Friday. I'm sure she's going to yell at me but then she'll adjust what I'm doing and I'll go forward from there.

I'm excited about this weekend, yet, dreading it a bit. It's going to be difficult to get by on 1000 calories while in Fort Worth, eating in restaurants. Meh. I'll figure it out I'm sure.

My goal for this week is to make it through the weekend with out totally undoing my 1000 a day plan. Send up a lil prayer for me if ya think of it. :)

My Body...

SHE WORKS!!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!

I've done 800 calories a day for 3 days now.... and... I've lost 10 MotherFrickin'Pounds!!!!! ::Does Happy Dance:: It's so, SO worth it. Next week I pop up to 1000 calories. I'm tempted to stay at 800 but everyone around me is freaking out so... yeah... I'll be smart.

In other news, Shecky's baseball team won a game last night!! W00T!!! It's the very first time they've won this season. It was so freakin CUTE watching them flip out in the dug out when they realized they were gonna win! (I know, I KNOW. It was unsportsman like but WOW... these boys EARNED it. ) They've come so very far from the beginning of the season. I'm proud of all of them!

I. Give. Up.

I've truly reached the limit of my patience with this weight loss journey. I gained again this week. 1.2 lbs. I was SURE I had lost. Aunt Flo came for her visit. Water weight should no longer be an issue. So... WTF body?????!!!!!?!?!?!

I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I feel like I can't win, can't do anything right.

I'm 2 seconds from throwing my hands in the air and screaming "FUCKING UNCLE ALREADY!"

What do I do NOW?

Tears of Frustration...

Yeah... That's where I am with my dieting and exercise. I'm eating my 34 points, which I STILL think is too many. I'm exercising my ASS off in the pool. I'm jogging, doing jumping jacks, squats, "The Cowboy", "The Rocking Horse", kicking, dancing all to some hard driving music for an hour a day.

I DIDN'T LOOSE AGAIN THIS WEEK.

That's 3 weeks in a row with no forward movement. Heck, I was at 393 January 27th and I'm back up to 398. WTF???

I'm angry and frustrated and annoyed.

My kid misses his father. A lot. I miss having my own space and not having to answer to my parents. I miss my fricking LIFE.

I'm starting to feel like its just not worth it. It's starting to feel like all the sacrifice and work just isn't paying off. I hate this shit.

I'm in a really, REALLY horrible mood. I've been in a funk for a couple of weeks as you can tell from my posts and the spotty number of them that exist. Now? NOW I'm pissed off.

I know I need to turn it around mentally but I'm having a really difficult time doing it. I can't tell if I'm depressed or just frustrated or if, God Help Me, it's a combination of both kicking my ass. All I know is it needs to GO AWAY!

I'm feeling really cut off from people, yet, I don't really want anyone around me because I'm on a hair trigger with my temper....

And now I'm whining. Imma shaddup for now. I hope you all have a great day.

It's Official...

My body hates me. I ate well this week. I worked hard eating the things I should... avoiding the things I shouldn't... and I GAINED just under 4 lbs.

I decided I'm not going to get all bent outta shape. I decided I'm not going to get upset or angry. Something similar happened after I went on vacation for the New Year. I lost on vacation. Then gained the next week. I don't really get it. However, it seems to be a pattern with my body. So... feh. Next week I'll loose. If PMS doesn't kick my ass and make me retain enough water to flood the lake... *cough*

Yeah... I decided all that but ummmm... it's not working. I'm pissed. I'm annoyed. I'm disheartened. Imma go cry now. Then... eat pizza. *cough*

Bleh

We spent today at the baseball field. Opening Ceremonies were this morning. Shecky played in a double header. We lost both games. The kids don't play so well but my GOD was it entertaining. Heh.

Unfortunately, my daily eats weren't so great as a result. Today I ate:

Breakfast:

1/2 an Egg Scrambled
2 Slices of Bacon
2 Slices Bread and Fat Free Country Gravy

Lunch:

Taco Salad (Unfortunately it was VERY greasy and SALTY)

Dinner:

Boiled Crawfish (SUPAH SALTY)

I'm thinking about my salt intake today and now I'm DREADING weigh in tomorrow. /cry

Back In The Saddle Again...

Things are finally starting to settle into routine for us again. Shecky is back in school. I got his progress report and he's making all A's and B's again. Baseball practice has begun. Apparently, he's a left handed batter... he does everything ELSE with his right hang... Huh? Opening day for Baseball is Saturday and he
has a double header. God help us all. May it be quick and injury free.

I'm back to exercising and dieting regularly. I actually managed to LOOSE a pound over the last 3 weeks. During all the turmoil and ... well intentioned food... I managed to still loose. WOOT! I'm down 70 lbs now. I've lost 2 shirt sizes. My ass seems to be the same size though. Basta'd.

I promise I'm back now with regular posts. Hopefully more interesting than THIS one. Heh.

Things I ate today:

Breakfast:

Fresh Fruit Salad

Lunch:

A roasted chicken and cheese sandwich with 2% cheese, Fat Free Mayo and Honey Mustard.

Light Lays Potato Chips. (Less than an oz. Just enough to give my sammy some crunch.)

Dinner:

BBQ hamburger made with lean ground meat and light bbq sauce. 2% cheese, FF Mayo and regular mustard.

Oven Fries

Skim Milk

We're Talkin' 'Bout A Revolution...

Heh not really. More like wrapping up the weekend. Husband came in Friday and finally got to see one of Shecky's basketball games. They lost again but at least he got to see him on the court.

There was one kid that was left up there by his parents for the entire day. Just dropped off... for the day... with no money or supervision. I was appalled. I bought the kiddo lunch and gave him a $5.00 bill before I left in case he needed anything else during the day. I was not ABOUT to leave that kid stranded with no money for the entire day while my family and I traipsed about town, having lunch and buying DVD's. I was angry but I felt SOMEONE needed to watch out for the child.

Weigh in was this morning. I lost 6 lbs this past week. WOOT. 395 is the new weight. I LOVE CORE PLAN! I just eat so much better on it rather than on points.

Sorry for all the rambling. Nite Nite.

Weekend Wrap Up

Sorry about the lack of post yesterday friends. I was exhausted and fell asleep while sitting up in a chair... waiting for Shecky to go to sleep... at ohhh... 9:30pm.

Yesterday was a LOOOONG day. We had a basketball game at the school which means I worked up there all day. I left the house a 8am and got home around 4. Bleh. I did have some great conversations with some of the other mom's there though.

We walked into the house and OOF... the tension! It was horrible. The parental units had been fighting all day. Made for an uncomfortable rest of the day. It's prolly a good thing I passed out dead to the world as early as I did.

Shecky's team ALMOST squeeked out a win. At one point the score was 8 to 10 in favor of the other team and I was SO excited. Final score was 8-12... However, I don't feel so bad about the near miss. I found out shortly after the game it was THEIR first win ever. They prolly needed it more. :)

Today has been kinda.. meh. I weighed in this morning and I'm.. at 401. I gained. I was so pissed off. Mom thought I should go up to 35 points because of the added exercise. I managed to do it this week and I GAINED. Yeah... we're going on core tomorrow.

I exercised in the pool today. Immediately after Shecky joined me and we horsed around for another 30-45 minutes playing Marco Polo and trying to surf on his kick board. Heh.

That's pretty much my weekend in a nutshell.

Eating Crow...

... No... it does NOT taste like chicken.

First, I'd like to apologize again for my post last night. Honestly, I'm not normally like that but WOW I was just... a raw, exposed nerve last night. I went to bed early and I'm feeling much better today.

I weighed in this morning and.. ummm... well... I lost 6.5 lbs. I'm now BELOW 400 POUNDS!!! My current weight is 397 lbs. Holy... Schnikies!

I know I still have a lot, LOT of weight to loose but getting below 400 is a YOOGE milestone for me! This is the least I've weighed in 3-4 years.

Now, I have to look forward and hit my next goal... 375 lbs. 22 lbs to go!

Thank you all for sticking with me through this journey and listening to me bitch, whine, cry and moan. Thank you for being a part of me saving and getting my life back. :)

Doctor, Doctor...

Gimme the news! I gotta Bad Case of Sugar Blues!

I called the Doc today. She took me off the Glimperide completely. We'll see how it goes. If I continue crashing daily I'm to call back.

Hopefully I'll have more interesting things to talk about now!

Yesterday was weigh in day... it was not pretty. I exercised every day and lost... are you ready? Can you HANDLE it? I lost .2 lbs. POINT 2. Jebus take the wheel... cause yer KILLIN me with this schiznit!

I'm wondering if all the crashing blood sugars have anything to do with it or if my body is just being difficult. Heh. It's prolly a combination of the two!

How are you guys doing out there? Hey... is this thing on?? ::taps on microphone::

So... a Knight, a Dragon and a Dwarf walk into a bar... you'da thought the Dwarf woulda missed it... ::Ba dum bum:: ***

*** I blame it on the constant low blood sugars... *cough*

Weigh In Day Update

So, it would seem not getting all my points in is a VERY BAD THING. I gained 6 lbs this week. WTF?

Upon reviewing my week I see a lot of things I did wrong. I didn't however EAT anything I shouldn't have. I didn't even eat everything I SHOULD have. Meh.

I was a lot more inactive this week. I had a headache for 4 days. 4 DAYS!!!! I felt like crap in general as well. I also had a problem of the... female variety. (Guys, you can stop reading if you'd like. I know this kinda stuff is... Icky for you heh) My last cycle ended on Dec 31, 2007. Niiiiiiiice right? I started AGAIN this past Monday. January 6, 2008. WTF? I dunno how much of the weight gain is due to some sort of hormonal thing I have going on or what but I DO NOT LIKE IT. I KNOW its the reason I felt like warmed over dog shit for 4 days though. Anyone have any ideas on what may be causing that?

This week I'm going to move around more and be more active. I'm going to EAT ALL MY FRAKKIN' POINTS. I'm going to drink my water and my dairy. Hopefully those things will make a difference. If not, I'll be going on the Core Plan shortly.

How was your week?

Daily Menu for Saturday 1-12-2008

Breakfast:

2 High Fiber Cinnamon Eggo's (3 points)
1 T Steens Syrup (1 point)
1 Cup Skim Milk (2 points) Total Meal: 6 points

Lunch:

1 Can Chicken Vienna Sausage (6 points)
8 Cubes Colby Jack Cheese (3 points)
1 Small Banana (1 point) Total Meal: 10 points

Dinner:

6oz Turkey Sausage (6 points)
1/2 Cup New Orleans Style Spicy Cream Navy Beans (2 points)
1/2 Cup Cooked Baby Carrots (1 point) Total Meal: 9 points

Snacks:

1 HUGE Dill Pickle
1 Cup SF/97% FF Brownie Fudge Sundae Ice Cream by Blue Bunny (3 points)

Total Points for Day: 28 points.

Short again. Grrrrr.


This post was actually written yesterday and I forgot to hit publish. I'm told this still counts for Blog365. heheh.

Humpty Frickin Dumpty...

... has got NOTHING on me.

Let me start by saying I was DREADING this morning. I knew I was going to have to weigh in and after being out of town for 10 days and basically off program for the last month I was scared. However... I managed to LOOSE .5 lbs in the last 10 days. I was STOKED I tell you. My day was starting out GREAT!

Then... I didn't manage to eat breakfast... or take my morning meds. Next, I made fruit salad. Actually, HONESTLY, I made the fruit salad AFTER dropping a glass bottle of Steen's Syrup on the floor and making a ginormous mess on the floor... THEN ... then I made the fruit salad. After that I had lunch. Well, TECHNICALLY, after that I made another mess in the kitchen as I knocked over a container filled with links and bbq sauce... thus christening the floor again. Meh. THEN I ate lunch. My next feat of stupidity was making a card for my father in law. I got the front of it done and it was quite nice. Then I did the inside... only... ummm... I did it upside down. I am a dumb ass my friends. I also managed to put my arm into my stamp pad and my left arm now looks like it has gangrene. Today... has not been my best day heh.

I'm still totally stoked about the minor weight loss cause I was so TOTALLY expecting a gain. Go ME! (Go far, FAR away from anything breakable or that I have to actually yanno.. MAKE... cough)

The One In Which I Admit I Fail At Life

Today I listened to my father rant at me about how dirty the house was. The floors were dirty and needed mopped. Everything was dusty. I left my shoes in a corner of the living room rather than on the back porch. Everything was wrong.

I've been doing what I can in Mom's absence. Cooking, picking up the house, dishes, keeping up with the laundry. It doesn't sound like much but you have to remember. I'm a 408 lb lady. That's a LOT for me. I can't mop yet. I can't move furniture and vacuum behind it yet. I can't do a LOT of things yet. I feel like I suck enough without him reinforcing my sucktitude ThankYouVeryMuch.

Due to his tirade lasting all morning I didn't eat until 11:30 today. My blood sugars crashed like mad. I was mid crash when I was trying to fix lunch for Shecky, Dad and I. I forgot Mom is storing things in the oven. I melted some plastic containers and bags containing candied fruit for our fruit cakes... that we had to order online... cause none of the stores in this God forsaken BFE SELL the damned red and green candied pineapple. There was red candied pineapple and ... well.. GOO all over the inside of the oven. I cleaned it up but not until after I ate... which... yanno... pissed him off all over again. To be fair I didn't tell him I was having a sugar crash but THAT was only because I didn't want him freaking out about that too. Meh.

I've been waiting for him to blow up all week. My nerves have been driving me nuts all week. I KNEW I couldn't keep the house clean enough to keep him in check but I tried. Unfortunately, I snacked a lot this week as a result of the Nervous Nellie's that I had. I caught myself doing it off and on all week. I tried to compensate for it the best I could by eating fewer points than normal on those days... but... I still didn't loose anything this week.

So... yeah... I fail at life this week. Good thing a new one is starting, eh?

And We Were Dancin'.. Dancin' In The Streets!

WOOT! Weigh In Day is today. I'm down another 3.9 lbs. I've lost a total of 52.1 lbs so far. I BROKE THE 50 lb. mark!!!!! Another 12 lbs and I'll be below 4oo and well on my way to driving a car again. (I was driving my Taurus at 380ish).

Holy Pete Moses!!!! I'm stoked folks. I am doing a few things differently. I'm not exercising. I'm being more active around the house. It would seem I wasn't eating enough points to counterbalance the activity I was doing in my exercise. That actually makes my head hurt.

Hi. My name is Tessa and I weight 411.9 lbs. ... and I'm excited about that! ::Dances through the Blogaverse::

10% Off!!!!

That's right my friends. I have finally lost 10% of myself! Today's weigh in shows a loss of 3.4 lbs for a total of 48.2 lbs. I hit my 10% goal at 46.3 lbs!!!!! I will have hit a 50 lbs loss in another 1.8 lbs. 14 lbs after that... My friends... I will be BELOW 400 lbs. I'm so STOKED!!!!! ::bounces in chair::

How was YOUR weekend?

Update and Links I'd Like You To Visit

Good Morning! Happy Columbus Day! I have some things I wanna talk about today but its nothing terribly important.

Here's a quick update on the weight loss scene. I lost 5.2 lbs this week. I'm at my lowest weight in AGES. I now weigh 420 lbs. I'm getting so close to breaking the 400 lb mark I can freaking TASTE it. AIIIIIIGH. I found out last week I actually only gained 3 lbs not 5. Mom rounded up when she told me verbally. I yelled a long time about THAT one. Heh.

My walk today was really good. I managed 7 minute cycles of walking rather than 5 and I got in 10 laps per cycle rather than 7. It was sort of a power walk... for me. LOL. A REAL power walked would have looked and said... "Ummm... lady... yer CRAWLING" but I feel good about having managed to increase my time, speed and number of laps. Gonna aim for the same for the rest of the week.

My friend Jess over at Oh, The Joys is having a rough time. Her grandmother passed away very suddenly this weekend. She's got a very moving tribute to her up on her site. Please go by and check it out. Give her some support and love from the Blogaverse!

Another friend of mine, Wendy, over at One Day At A Time... is asking the Blog Community to stand up and help her support a really great cause. If you can afford to donate I encourage you to do so. If you can't, like me, perhaps linking to her and giving her more exposure for the cause would be a nice way to help out. Her email to me follows and it contains a link:

Tessa,

Hunger is an issue that has become very important to me and I have decided to get involved! I am walking in the CROP Hunger Walk and I need your help. Please consider making a donation to my efforts. Your donation supports programs that work to solve this world-wide challenge.You can help me by making a donation online. Click on the link below and you will be taken to my personal donation page where you can make a secure online credit card donation. Thank you,Follow This Link to visit my personal web page and help me in my efforts to support Church World Service.

Wendy

That's it for now. I'll be back tonight with today's Menu.

OH! Shecky is FINALLY off restriction and can go play. PRAISE JEBUS I made it through! errr HE MADE IT THROUGH... heh.