Happy Belated Birthday Mom

Mom--

I know your birthday was a train wreck. I am so, so sorry that you had to bury your own mother on a day that should have been a celebration for you. Next year? Next year we are SO gonna party for your 64th!!!

You killed a small part of me today when you said, "I saw my mom for the first time on my birthday... and I saw her for the last time on my birthday, too. Talk about full circle..." Gah! I wish I could make all this easier for you. It's simple enough to put aside my pain to fix yours. Unfortunately, I know nothing I say or do is going to make it any better.

I love you Mom. Happy Birthday.

"HOLY CRAP!" Or "How Did I Get So Friggin' OLD?"

Today I turned 39. ::pick jaw up offa the floor:: Fuck, I'm OLD! lol. I hate saying that but its true. When I was 18... 39 was ANCIENT! Now that I'm 39 I'm like... "errrmmm... Its not really THAT Old... Not... REALLY!" Heh.

I have had a lovely day. Dad finished the pool/deck/pool house yesterday. He's been killing himself all week to get it done for my birthday. (Thanks Daddy. Love you.) *Yes... I'm 39 and still call him Daddy occasionally. Bite me!*

Husband drove in this morning. He brought me a dozen roses and an XBox 360 game with arcade games on it and a lovely card. Thanks Honey. You did a great job this year. :)

Mom fixed a fabulous lunch of fried shrimp (Yeah I know... so not on the diet but so VERY worth the splurge in calories) and oven fries. Thank you Momma. :) You Rock.

J came in Friday and stayed until after lunch. He brought me this wicked cool thing that does a light show with flashing colored lights and a nylon string. Heh. Its awesome. I've been informed there's other things coming in the mail. You're a love J. Thank you for thinking of me.

Shecky set the table for the family lunch. I was so proud of my lil guy wanting to help out so I didn't have to do anything. He was so frickin' cute.

I got calls from many other family and friends with good wishes and "Happy Birthday" greetings. What more could a girl ask for? Heheh how about the 7.8 lb loss I posted this morning as well? WOOT! Its been a damn good day! I hope you all had a day just as great!

Paaaar-tay!!!!

The weekend is upon us! YEAH! Tomorrow we pick up Unca B, Sheky's godfather, from the airport and head to the lake. Unca B's parents are meeting us there as well. Saturday is the party, PLEASE don't let it rain! Everything we have planned is OUTSIDE. Sunday Unca B and his folks will leave us, R will go back home, and Sheky and I will remain at the lake.

Monday I start my program for weight loss and exercise. July 14th I have a seminar with Dr. Naaman about the gastric bypass surgery and we'll move forward from there.

I hope everyone has a fantabulous weekend!

Help! Am I One of THOSE Moms??

I read, all the time, about the competi-mom's. I hear about the extreme birthday parties and the extreme cost of those parties. I realized today... I may be one of those mommies.

Shecky turns 7 on July 4th. We are going to have his birthday party at my parents place at the lake. We're going to invite all the kids that are there for the summer and basically everyone ELSE as well. There will be cake, hot dogs, chili and chips. Sack races in the sand, a treasure hunt and frog flinging will be the games for the kids. There will be prizes for the winners. The kids will have a chance to beat the stuffing out of a pinata filled with candy and gum. I'm supplying water guns for all the kids and the "goodie bags" will be toys to play in the sand (a plastic pail, rake, scoop and shovel).

So far this party is costing me $130.00. That may not sound like much but that's just for the games, pinata, pinata guts, treasure chest and toys. That's not the food, decorations, prizes or the gift for my child.

Mom keeps telling me to keep it low key and not worry so much about it. She tells this to her daughter that planned a YOOGE BBQ for the child's FIRST birthday. He's had parties over the years at Putt-Putt, Parks, a gymnastics club... One year, I had specially wrapped Hershey Bars made. They had Spiderman on them with Happy 4th Birthday on it. The bar code was his dob. I mean... COME ON! That was WAY cool.

The thing is, I don't do these things to compete with anyone else's party or even to out do the party thrown the year before. Its actually a much simpler reason. I want my son to look back on his birthday parties and remember what a great time it was. I want him to think back on them and know just how much he was/is loved and that his birthday was/is an event to be CELEBRATED and a day to make noise because its the day we were first blessed with his presence. Our journey to get him here was rocky at best. These parties are just my way of celebrating him and the joy he brings me. Is that wrong?