Psychology 101... on WW Core Plan

Update: This week's weigh in I lost 1.5lbs but I'm gaining MUSCLE. My clothes are starting to fit differently!!!! WOOT!

I'm doing the WW Core plan. I was TERRIFIED to start this diet. You can eat as much as you want on it as long as you stick to the items on the Core list and eat until you're satisfied. Now... I weigh 448 lbs.... If I knew when my hunger was SATISFIED... do you REALLY think I'd weigh that much. I was very, VERY skeptical of this program.

However, it has actually been working quite well for me. I don't feel deprived of anything though. I have to admit, I am missing Bread and Biscuits. I haven't felt hungry unless, of course, I'm a dork and don't eat regularly which has been known to happen.

The Core Program HAS made me much more aware of my battle with Head Hunger vs. Physical Hunger. I've noticed that if I allow myself to get too hungry my MIND doesn't realize when my BODY has had enough food.

Let me give you and example. Typically I get up at 7 or 7:30 am. Sometime around 8 or 9am we hit the lake for an hour or more of exercise. I tread water, I do jumping jacks, I do arm exercises, I do squats and I walk, all in the water. We arrive back at the house between 9 and 10am and drip dry on the back porch for 30 minutes to an hour. I take my medication around 11am and eat my first meal around 11:30am... ish. Mom serves the portions for me and I eat what she serves. She asks if I'm "satisfied" and often, more often than not really, I don't know how to answer the question. PHYSICALLY, yes... I'm satisfied. Mentally I'm still hungry. Mentally I'm like, MORE FOOD!!!! MUST HAVE MORE FOOD!!!! WTF? I mean... REALLY! If I actually THINK about the questions and gauge how I feel after I've eaten I know I've had plenty.

Unfortunately, my USUAL modus operandi is to just move on to my next task after eating until I'm miserably full and without reflecting on whether or not my hunger has truly been sated. My life is so full of...things. Work, TV shows, Movies, computer games, fighting with my son about cleaning his room or going to bed, "hanging out", busy, Busy, BUSY. I never take the time to listen to myself or take care of myself. Everyone and everything is more important. Here at the lake, thanks to my very supportive and wonderful parents, I have nothing BUT time. I'm being given an opportunity to take care of myself and make me and my needs my number one priority. It is allowing me to actually ACT on some of the issues that I recognize are a part of my psyche.

Facing your demons head on... its not for the faint of heart. Just like beginning The Core Program, its frightening me and making me uncomfortable. The last week of exercising and dieting and self-reflection has made me realize how important it is to do it. This could be what saves my life. I can't thank them enough.