Weight Loss Walk and Shecky Cuteness

Hey folks. I'm still eating 1200-1600 calories a day. Last week I managed to loose 7.7 lbs. I'm not hungry much. I get a little hungry toward the end of the day but that's it. Definitely not starving.

The exercise pool is out of commission. The pump/heater unit is fried. We've mailed it off. It should reach its destination Monday... ish. God knows when we'll get it back.

Currently I'm walking for exercise. I make the block several times a day. I'm aiming for 5 a day but I haven't made it past 4. The lil hill at the end of my walk KILLS me. I mean like... heart thumping outta my chest OMGICAN'TBREATHE gasping for air KILLS me.

But... I kinda like it. It reminds me why I'm doing this.

Conversation with Shecky day before yesterday:

Sheck: Momma! Guess what "Fall" does to make me do stuff SHE doesn't wanna do?

Me: ??? What ???

Sheck: She gives me PUPPY DOG EYES and LIPS!!!!!

Me: (trying desperately not to crack up) Does it work?

Sheck: Well.. .(Thoughtful silence from him) She's REALLY cute when she does it!

Me: (Loosing my shit) ::FacePalm::

God... it starts EARLY.

I. Give. Up.

I've truly reached the limit of my patience with this weight loss journey. I gained again this week. 1.2 lbs. I was SURE I had lost. Aunt Flo came for her visit. Water weight should no longer be an issue. So... WTF body?????!!!!!?!?!?!

I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I feel like I can't win, can't do anything right.

I'm 2 seconds from throwing my hands in the air and screaming "FUCKING UNCLE ALREADY!"

What do I do NOW?

Silence...

is golden they say... Yeah.... Not so much when you are a blogger. Sorry for being so quiet lately. We've been going crazy trying to get ready for Thanksgiving.

I have a couple of updates on my weight loss/health issues. I gained .3 lbs this week. POINT THREE. Damn it. It couldn't have just stayed the SAME yanno? lol

I was much more immobile last week. Spent a lot of time at the dinning room table baking. Bleh.

I DID manage a milestone today though. I BEAT THE WALMART MONSTER. We went into town today and I managed to do the shopping, for an hour, walking. NO SCOOTER! WOOT! I'm tired and sore but it was so worth it!

Eating to Survive...

I have something really... odd... going on. My blood sugars are LOW. Yesterday I crashed twice. Today I crashed again. Its been like this for a week... and its getting ... old.

Last night I had to eat a waffle and syrup before bed just so I could take my insulin. I mean.. COME ON! That's not terribly conducive to loosing weight.

We had BBQ hamburgers tonight. One patty, two slices of bread and a slice of 2% cheese is 6 points. I just had to eat a 2nd one so I could take my insulin... I've NEVER had to work this hard to keep my sugars up... its neat and a pain in the ass all at the same time. I'll be interested to see what my weight is tomorrow and I'll be calling the Dr. Monday to see what gives!

And We Were Dancin'.. Dancin' In The Streets!

WOOT! Weigh In Day is today. I'm down another 3.9 lbs. I've lost a total of 52.1 lbs so far. I BROKE THE 50 lb. mark!!!!! Another 12 lbs and I'll be below 4oo and well on my way to driving a car again. (I was driving my Taurus at 380ish).

Holy Pete Moses!!!! I'm stoked folks. I am doing a few things differently. I'm not exercising. I'm being more active around the house. It would seem I wasn't eating enough points to counterbalance the activity I was doing in my exercise. That actually makes my head hurt.

Hi. My name is Tessa and I weight 411.9 lbs. ... and I'm excited about that! ::Dances through the Blogaverse::

10% Off!!!!

That's right my friends. I have finally lost 10% of myself! Today's weigh in shows a loss of 3.4 lbs for a total of 48.2 lbs. I hit my 10% goal at 46.3 lbs!!!!! I will have hit a 50 lbs loss in another 1.8 lbs. 14 lbs after that... My friends... I will be BELOW 400 lbs. I'm so STOKED!!!!! ::bounces in chair::

How was YOUR weekend?

Daily Menu for Thursday 10-11-2007

Breakfast:

• 1 C Oatmeal 2 points
• 1 C Skim Milk 2 points
• 1 C Diced Sliced Peaches 2 points (6 Total Points)

Lunch:

• 3 oz Braunshwager 6 points
• 12 Saltine Crackers 2 points
• 2 C Green Seedless Grapes 2 points (10 Total Points)

Dinner:

• 6 oz Mom's Meatloaf 6 points
• 1 C Cous Cous 4 points
• 1/2 C Corn 1 point
• 1/2 C Green Beans 0 points (11 total Points)

Snack:

• 8 Sugar Free Shortbread Cookies 4 points
• 1 C Skim Milk 2 points (6 Total Points)

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Total Points for the Day 33

Get Thee Behind me...

Temptation! Holy CRAP I'm having a tough time today. I'm not hungry yet I want to snack... on... everything. I'm not sure what the reason is though.

I'm mildly stressed about a couple of things going on but no so much that I should be having snack attacks. Its too soon for PMS. WTF?

I'm trying hard to fight the temptation but man... if I let my guard down for just a moment its gonna be BAD. Looks like a long day today.

Anyone have suggestions or hints for dealing with this? Please?

Healthy Updates

Hey there! Glad you could make it today! Weigh In was this morning. I managed to loose the 2 lbs I gained the week before... Go Me! I was hoping for some additional weight loss but I'll take the 2 lbs.

I was walking for my exercise this past week. The water in the lake is low, grass is all over the place in the swimming area and the water has an odd odor... so... I started walking. I was only doing about 10 minutes of walking and I was having to do it in small bursts and spurts. I was very concerned it wasn't going to be enough to allow for some weight loss but thankfully it was.

Today I managed to walk 16 minutes and I walked for longer at a stretch each time. Progress... Progress is good.

I am having a little trouble food wise. Nothing seems to pique my appetite and as a result I'm just sort of eating on auto-pilot. I don't know if its because we need to vary the food we are eating, the need to try new recipes or if its just a mental slump. I'm fighting through it though. Lunch seems to be my biggest obstacle. I'm just not hungry so I eat small and light. Lately lunch has been grapes, green, seedless grapes. No protein just fruit. Probably not the best choice for a diabetic but its working so far.

Speaking of my diabetes... my blood sugars have been GREAT. Fasting numbers are running from the mid 80's to the low 100's which is really good. I'm quite pleased with it.

So... now its YOUR turn. What have YOU been up to? Have you been trying to foster healthy habits or are you just flying by the seat of your pants? What's working or NOT working for YOU?

WI Day Blues

Well, I gained 2 lbs this week. Its not completely unexpected after the 9 lbs loss last week however it is disheartening. I've looked back on the week and I think I've pinpointed a few things that impacted it.

1. Not taking in enough dairy. I'm really bad about this. I tend to not pay attention to it or even think about it most of the time. I need to be more aware of my dairy intake. I know I KEEP saying this but it seems to be a real hurdle for me a lot of the time.

2. Taking in too MANY carbs. I ate more rice this week, more potato than I usually do. It helped sate my appetite but I tend to loose better eating high protein rather than higher carbs.

3. Only eating 1 or 2 meals a day. I know. I know. BAD Idea. I KNOW that doesn't work for me but the Core Plan says only to eat when you're hungry. I wasn't hungry much this week. Its back to 3 meals a day for me even if lunch is something really small.

4. Not exercising enough. I don't know how true this one is or not. I didn't swim as much this week. Only once. However, I have walked a couple of times. It wasn't for nearly as long as my water exercises are but its much more strenuous. I'm not sure what to make of that. I'm going to walk again this week and see if I can't increase the time I'm walking a bit and see if it makes a difference.

Otherwise, its been a nice weekend. Shecky is running around having a blast with all the kids that are here this weekend. Its the last weekend of Summer for the most part and a lot of people came to the lake for the weekend for one last hurrah. Hope you're all having a great holiday weekend as well.

Random Writings

Today is a free flow "Stream of Consciousness" blogging day for me. Here we go....

OMG... Instead of exercising in the water today I WALKED. WTF was I THINKING? Well, lemme tell you. Exercising in the water is a great no impact work out, but it doesn't get my heart rate up or my respiration's. There's no cardiac work out for me with it at this point. I walked for all of 13 minutes... in 2 or 3 minute increments per time. I had to rest to catch my breath between but other than that it went well. My legs are EXHAUSTED right now. My knees, well, we're not really on speaking terms except when they YELL at me, but I feel good about having done it. I think I'll walk several days a week and only do the water exercises on the days its just too damn hot to walk. We'll see how it goes.

Weight Watchers Core plan... I LOVE IT. I know I've said this before but I really do. I eat ONLY when I'm hungry. It drives my mom bonkers because she feels like I'm not eating enough but I'm satisfied when I quit. Not full, yet not hungry. I feel better eating this way. No bloat (I'm not eating much bread), very little in the way of carbs except fruits and starchy veggies and almost no junk. Ok... I DID say ALMOST no junk. I do occasionally splurge and have a No Pudge Brownie or one cookie or something of that sort but that's just once in a while. (Hey, I'm SO not perfect....)

There's a young girl here at the lake named KT. I have a LOT of regard and respect for this 11 year old. She's doing the Weight Watchers Flex Plan. SHE decided to do it and SHE figures it out for herself. Her mom is encouraging her and so am I. I wish I had that sort of fortitude and drive to better myself at her age. Way to go KT!

Shecky had his first test yesterday. THIRD day of school and he had a test. It was vocabulary and he ROCKED IT! He got 105% on it. (Everything including the 5 bonus words! GO SHECK GO!) He also got 100% on a math paper the same day. He was SO proud of himself and I was THRILLED. THIS is what I'm trying to instill in him about school. I WANT him to be excited to do well and upset if he doesn't. He got to get a "prize" out of the Reward Bag for doing so well on his very first test. He was loved it. To top it ALL off... that was a pre-test for Friday's test. Since he scored a perfect score he doesn't have to retake the test Friday. This is gonna be a weekly thing. I have a feeling I'm going to need more "prizes" for the Reward Bag. Anyone have suggestions for smallish rewards for a 7 year old who's obsessed with Pirates of the Caribbean, Yugio, Star Wars and various other little boy things?

I hope you all have a great day! /end random thoughts.. for now

Hangin' By My Fingertips....

Today... I am tired. Bone weary. I have no clue as to why. I didn't exercise in the water. I didn't do much of anything. I helped with laundry, did dishes, helped Shecky with homework, hung out with him this evening upstairs watching him play games, watching TV with him and reading. Nothing strenuous. I took a 2 hour NAP today from 11am to 1pm even. Yet, I'm so tired I can barely think.

I've eaten some oatmeal with peaches in it and some soup with cabbage, tomato, chicken and zucchini in it. Its not like I'm not eating. Its not like I'm eating junk. However, my energy level just doesn't seem to exist on any REAL level. Meh.

I'm afraid after last weeks massive weight loss this week may be a gain. I'm not eating much but I'm not DOING all that much either. Sometimes this whole weight loss roller coaster is more than I can handle mentally.

Mom is burned out. She's not on plan right now and I can't really ding her for it. She's already DONE this and lost over 100 lbs.

I'm just really struggling mentally right now. Tomorrow will be better, Right?

WEIGH IN DAY UPDATE

I weighed a day early this week. Today is Dad's Birthday (HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!) and we are all going out to eat. Mom, Dad, Husband, Shecky, myself, and my brother and his family. We're going to a Cajun buffet place. We baked Apple Pie and made Dad's favorite addition to it... Homemade Cinnamon Ice Cream. I'm eating what I want today. Hence, the day early weigh in.

::Does Happy Dance In My Chair:: I lost NINE pounds this week. That's right, 9 pounds!!!! I've lost a total of 40.6 pounds to date. I'll hit 10% of my body weight lost in 6 more lbs. I'll have lost 50 pounds shortly after.

THIS PLAN IS WORKING!!!!! For the first time in DECADES, and that's not an exaggeration, I feel hopeful that I can actually loose this weight. That it is POSSIBLE to loose this huge amount of weight on my own. (When I say on my own I mean without surgery. I couldn't have come even THIS far without a lot of love, support and help from family and friends.)

I... yanno... I almost have no words to describe how I'm feeling right now. I KNOW I have a long way yet to go but I've come a long way in just 7 weeks. Its one Hell of a ride so far. I can't wait to see what's around the next corner...

Tale of Wal-Mart Woe

Well... walking through Wallyworld was NOT as successful as I had anticipated. I managed to walk half way through the store and then my back started cramping and my legs started shaking. Mind you, that's not half way AROUND but THROUGH. I wanted to cry. My expectation was that I'd be able to make that shopping trip on foot. We only needed a couple of things. Stitch Witch, Poster Frames and a Belt for Shecky. That was it. I couldn't handle it.

Today, my knees are KILLING me with each step. My back is very sore and tires easily. Damn it. I got a huge reality check last night with this foray through the store. I really thought I was doing better than that.

I realize I'm doing well. 31 lbs in 7 weeks is NOTHING to sneeze at. Its a significant weight loss. I'm moving more. I'm climbing the stairs more. I'm exercising in the water. I still have a long, LONG way to go.

Sunday I managed to cook dinner for Mom, Dad, Shecky and I. It was good. I was exhausted after. I DID manage it though. Baby... steps. I need to keep reminding myself its all got to come in baby steps.

Too bad when they were handing out patience I thought they meant PATIENTS ... and hid... heh.

Weekly Update

Today was weigh in day. I LOST 4 more pounds! ::Does happy dance:: I was SO worried this week because I really wasn't careful about getting in all my fruits and veggies... or my water... or... well... my dairy. I was sure I was going to gain. Can I say how pissed off I would have been if I HAD gained? lol

I ate much less food this past week than I had been. Which is partly, why I didn't get in all the fruits and veggies and the dairy. I have no excuse for the water. I just don't drink much and I prefer Fresca or Diet Vanilla Pepsi to ... Water. Bleh.

Tonight is the real test. I've lost 31.6 lbs in 7 weeks. Tonight, after we have dinner together as a family (Husband, Shecky and I) for the first time in ohhh... 2 months... we are going to Wal-Mart and I am NOT going to use a cart. I'm going to walk that sucker as long as I can and see how long it takes before I NEED the cart of doom! Wish me luck!

One of THOSE Days

Have you ever had a day where you just wanted to PINCH your child's head off? Not LITERALLY mind you but... well... close! Shecky drove me NUTS today. He wasn't listening AT ALL. He's a great kid usually but today and tonight I had to repeat things 4, 5, 6, 7 and 8 times! I know, I know... I have PMS. I KNOW I'm overreacting to him but my GOD he was stomping on my last nerve with steel cleats! And then... then my MIL sends me some pictures of Shecky and his new baby cousin Sleepy! I got all gooey and fuzzy inside when I saw them! I would post them here but I can't figure out how to do it in the BODY of the post rather then with the title. It doesn't make much sense to post them up there!!!


Tomorrow Husband will be here for a visit. He'll come in around 9am and stay till sometime Tuesday evening. Shecky is THRILLED. He misses his daddy something fierce but he also can't wait to get his PS2 and his Game Cube hooked up. (Mommy is an electronics idiot... I am not even going to ATTEMPT to hook that schiznit up. DVD player, 2 game platforms and a Satellite Receiver? Hells no! Switch box??? WTF? I am not blowing up ANYTHING!)


Tomorrow is also weigh in. I'm a little apprehensive about it this week. Mentally, I haven't been on top of my game. I've been feeling very bleh... a lil meh... and even a bit... FEH! I haven't been making sure I get in all my dairy, fruits and veggies or my water. Its been a very off week for me. Hopefully I haven't done any damage to my progress or my program. If I post a weight gain I've got no one to blame but myself.


I'm making a New Week Resolution right now. Starting tomorrow I'm going to be more proactive. I'm going to pay more attention to WHAT I'm eating and not just how MUCH I'm eating. I'm going to exercise with more intent and more enthusiasm while bitching and whining less. Let's see how I do!

Complete This Sentance

I'm running ______________________. I can only end it one of two ways "To The Bathroom" or "On Empty". Its not been a good day for me health wise. I'm not sure if I've caught some sort of stomach bug or my supper last night decided to LITERALLY beat the crap out of me but something is afoot... and I'm NOT happy about it. Its been going on since last night. I still managed to get my water exercise in today but it was ... scary.

I've been perusing the Weight Watcher message boards today. They've got some fantastic people there who are supportive, friendly and have great tips and recipe's they're willing to share. I like it lots.

Shecky story for the day:

He came in around 4PM today looking like he's rolled in a mud pit, rolled in a sand pit, and THEN rolled in a pig pen. OMG the MUD! I asked him what he'd been doing and his response was "Fishin'" ... Ummm Ok... ::Blink Blink::

Sorry I'm not more chatty today... I have to Run... again... sigh.

UPDATE!!!!

Man, today has been BUSY. Husband called. The water pump on the car is D-E-A-D. Lovely ay? He's now looking for a new vehicle. We keep pouring money into this one every month. We have no car payment but what's the diff if we have to repair it every dang month. Might as well get one that has a monthly payment that's reliable. Bleh.

Of course... this comes on the heels of my GIVING MY TWO WEEKS NOTICE at work. Yeah...

The weight loss program is working well. Down another 1.3 this week. That's REALLY good considering its my TIME, ifyouknowwhatimeanwinkwinknudgenudgesaynomore! I've lost a total of 27.6 lbs in 6 weeks time. My short term disability at work runs out in 2 weeks. It was time to make a decision.

I really enjoy my job. The company I work for is fab. My boss and HIS boss are both supportive and amazingly helpful to me throughout my tenure there. My health has been suck for a long time but they stood by me and did everything they could to make it possible for me to keep my job.

Unfortunately, this is a long term project for me. I DO NOT WANT to have a Gastric Bypass. I just don't. I was considering it when I felt I had no other options. I considered it when I feared nothing else would work. What I'm doing IS working though. It will take a couple of years for it to make enough difference but its better than the invasive, dangerous, scary as hell surgery. I just can't do it AND work. There's not enough time in the day or energy in my body.

I have quit my job. In two weeks, my full time job will be simple. Loose weight. Get more mobile. Burn calories. GET HEALTHY. As a bonus for being a great employee, I get to be a SAHM and raise my child the way I've always wanted. Holy Hell... I'm scared. Hold me?

26.3 Less of Me... 6% of Me MISSING!

YEEEEEAAAAH! I love the WW Core Program. It just works so much better for me than Flex. I posted a loss this morning of 3.3 pounds. I've lost 6% of my body weight. :Does the dance of joy!:

I went to the doctor in Houston Friday. Gave her my numbers and she was suitably impressed. She was pleased with my progress and wants to see me for another check up in 6 weeks. (They played vampire and took blood as well. Going to have my A1C, Cholesterol and Iron checked.)

I know this is all sort of dry for you but I am STOKED! Progress, Progress, PROGRESS! I am a happy, happy Cajun girl! I had a good loss this week and Shecky comes home this coming weekend. :Bounces in Chair: Ahhhh... Life doesn't GET any better than this.

Weekly Weight Woss Wupdate...

Yeah I know... Lame Title. Heh. But I'm in a GOOD mood. I lost 8.1 lbs this past week for a total of 24.8 lbs in 3 weeks. WOOOOOOOT!!!! Even with a visit from my unloved and unwanted Aunt Flo! ::Does Happy Dance::

We're changing things up this week a bit and its making me... apprehensive. We are moving from the Core plan, which I ADORE, to points. We did core for 3 weeks and now we're going to do Points. It is day 1 and my tolerance is already being tested.

We got up a bit late today so we didn't hit the lake for our exercise until 9:30. We exercised for an hour and a half. Got out, drip dried, I took a nice long bath/soak in the big tub with jets and then at a fricking 11 point lunch at 1pm. It was the first thing I'd eaten all day and I was frickin' STARVING!!! I had a sandwich of Cucumbers, tomato's and Light Garden Veggie Philly Cream cheese, a Smart Ones Salisbury Steak frozen dinner, 1 cup skim milk and 1 cup cantaloupe. I was OVERFULL. THAT, in a nutshell, is why I don't like the points plan. I'm actually supposed to eat, according to the plan, 44 points a day. That's crazy! That's WAY too much food. We decided I'm going to do 34 points a day which is STILL a lot more food than I've been eating on Core. On Core, I eat till I start feeling a little full, then I stop. On Points, I have to eat all the points even if I'm not Effin hungry! Meh. I'll try it for 3 weeks and see how it goes but as of now... I'm not likin' it. We'll see what the weight loss shows next week.

On a totally different subject, did you know that getting a copy of your child's birth certificate from the county because you are an idiot and can't find it to register him for school will run you around $30.00??? That's nuts.... sigh