Running on Empty

I know I've been really unfaithful to posting here. I apologize to anyone that's been checking in for updates. I've been having a lot of issues with my health the last week or so and, frankly, its scaring the ever loving bejesus out of me. Pain... LOTS of pain. Pain bad enough that it wakes me from a deep sleep and keeps me awake. Stomach issues. I feel full even when I don't eat much/anything. Even with taking the Reglan. I'm miserable and sad and nervous and uncomfortable and I HURT. I spent the weekend crying from it. I spent Monday night awake because of it. I spent Tuesday at home with no pay due to all of it. I'm off again today. I have a doctors appointment at 9:30am. I've mentioned all of this to them before and the seem to just wave it off. I'm not letting them this time. I know my size poses problems diagnostically but I'm no less worth finding the problem and fixing it than someone that's smaller than I am. Even if they have to work a little harder to do it.