On The Road Again...

I'm going to Houston this afternoon. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. Gonna have a diabetes check and talk to my doc about my weight loss efforts.

Then its on to Fort Worth for Husband's retirement party. Then... back home to the lake Sunday night. Late.

In other news... MySpace (Yes... I have a page :P) has a Karaoke Page. It's WAAAAAY cool. You can record yourself singing and then post it on your page... or not. I did! Anyone interested in listening to it can go here:

My MySpace Page

If you listen.. please... give me some feedback either here or there. I'm nervous about having it up there and want to know if I should leave it or take it down.

Thank You...

I read something that really ... reached me today. Gray over at Gray Matter Matters is feeling undervalued, unappreciated and unrecognized for the things she does daily to get her family through the day, the week, life in general.

This is for all of us that feel that same way. That cross that same desolate, cold pond wondering if they're doing it right or doing enough to make the difference they want to make....

THANK YOU

Thank you for raising your children with values.

Thank you for giving them discipline, love, attention and time.

Thank you for dealing with your spouse and their foibles deftly and smilingly.

Thank you for being involved in your family.

Thank you for making the world a better place through what you do and what you teach.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

You make it easier for the rest of us to do the same and you let us know we aren't alone in our efforts or our struggles.

Here's to all of us:

Weight Loss Wins, Woes and Wishes

Today was my OFFICIAL Weight In Day for the week. After eating 800 calories a day for 7 days, I lost a total of 10 lbs.

Yeah. You read that right. No additional weight loss for the 2 nd half of the week.

Initially, I was kinda pissed off. I mean... DAMN. WTF was I starving myself for, right? Then... I flipped my perspective.

I LOST 10 LBS IN A WEEK!
I proved to myself I can monitor my food intake without relying on "points".
I proved to myself I can monitor my food intake without eating junk to satisfy my cravings.
I busted that ever loving plateau I've been on for MONTHS.
I realized that 800 calories a day really ISN'T enough. By the end of the week I was much less active due to fatigue, hence, no additional weight loss.
I realized I really do HAVE to exercise in the pool to loose weight.
I LOST 10 LBS IN A WEEK!

Heheh. Sorry. Kinda stoked about that one. *ahem*

Today I go up to 1000 calories a day. I actually ate, gasp, BREAKFAST. I had 2 slices of bacon and one Light Thick & Creamy Yoplait Yogurt for a total of 190 calories. There's those extra 200 calories. :)

I have a doctor's appointment with my physician Friday. I'm sure she's going to yell at me but then she'll adjust what I'm doing and I'll go forward from there.

I'm excited about this weekend, yet, dreading it a bit. It's going to be difficult to get by on 1000 calories while in Fort Worth, eating in restaurants. Meh. I'll figure it out I'm sure.

My goal for this week is to make it through the weekend with out totally undoing my 1000 a day plan. Send up a lil prayer for me if ya think of it. :)

Weekend Warrior No More... Almost

This weekend Husband retires from military service.

He was full time USAF for 13 years. Once Shecky was born he got out. He didn't want to be gone as much as the military required. He didn't want to miss that much of Shecky's growth and love. He joined the USAF Reserves. He was based out of Fort Worth for 7 years. One weekend a month. Two weeks a year.

As of this Sunday, May 4, 2008, he will be officially retired. No more weekends playing war games. No more trips hither and yon. No more worries about his unit being called to action during a war. A pension and health benefits waiting for us when he turns 65. Fond memories of his days serving our country and some not so fond...

It's the end of an era. The close of a very long chapter. Congratulations Honey. You did it!

My Body...

SHE WORKS!!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!

I've done 800 calories a day for 3 days now.... and... I've lost 10 MotherFrickin'Pounds!!!!! ::Does Happy Dance:: It's so, SO worth it. Next week I pop up to 1000 calories. I'm tempted to stay at 800 but everyone around me is freaking out so... yeah... I'll be smart.

In other news, Shecky's baseball team won a game last night!! W00T!!! It's the very first time they've won this season. It was so freakin CUTE watching them flip out in the dug out when they realized they were gonna win! (I know, I KNOW. It was unsportsman like but WOW... these boys EARNED it. ) They've come so very far from the beginning of the season. I'm proud of all of them!

Ok... So...

I came up with a new plan that I put into action yesterday.

I ate a total of 800 calories yesterday. I'm going to continue on 800 calories a day for a week and see if I can't shock my metabolism into working.

I ate:

1 Container of Light Yoplait Yogurt (100 Calories)
8 Cubes pre-cut Colby Jack Cheese (110 Calories)
1 Cup Fruit Salad (120 Calories)
1 Pkg. Light Peanut Butter Cracker(160 Calories)
4 Oz Chicken Breast (172 Calories)
5 Oz Boiled Russet Potato (110 Calories)
1/2 Cup Cooked Baby Carrots (27 Calories)
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Total Daily Calories: 799
Total Daily Points: 18

I was hungry when I went to bed but not STARVING. My activity level yesterday was LOW because I was having a lot of colon pain. It was the 3rd day in a row. Thank GOD it stopped late last night and today I'm doing better.

I exercised in the pool this morning for an hour from 8am to 9am. I'm about to eat something and then go clean the upstairs. Hopefully this is going to kick start my body into a loosing cycle again. Keep your fingers, toes and anything else you can cross... crossed!

I. Give. Up.

I've truly reached the limit of my patience with this weight loss journey. I gained again this week. 1.2 lbs. I was SURE I had lost. Aunt Flo came for her visit. Water weight should no longer be an issue. So... WTF body?????!!!!!?!?!?!

I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I feel like I can't win, can't do anything right.

I'm 2 seconds from throwing my hands in the air and screaming "FUCKING UNCLE ALREADY!"

What do I do NOW?