I went to weigh in last night and thought my brains were going to leak out of my ears. I gained a little over 4 pounds. 4 POUNDS! What the hell? I followed the plan. I stuffed the points in until I thought I was going to fricking POP. I didn't cheat. I didn't fudge on my food diary and I GAINED 4 pounds. Can I cry now?
I'm so completely frustrated. I've tried to talk to the meeting leaders (Both at work and where I weigh) and all they really say is get in all your points. I've explained that I'm VERY inactive. I've explained that I have gastroparesis. I've explained that I truly feel I'm eating too many points for my level of activity and the complication of the gastroparesis. They just say "Make sure you eat all your allotted points. Oh! Make sure you get the 35 weekly allotment of extra points eaten too!" WTF? I'm sorry but that's RIDICULOUS! Its like they're programmed to push the plan and nothing else. Well... pardon my french but... Screw that. I'm dropping down to 34 points a day. Before they reworked the program and added points to every ones allotment 34 was the max number of points you could get. I've DONE the plan at that level. I was about 20lbs lighter then. It WORKED. So... MEH! Imma switch to that and see how it goes. I've got to do something. I'm starting to feel like its pointless and I can't allow myself to get into that mindset or it will NEVER work. Help!?!?